I have been wondering lately about the possibilities. The ways my life COULD have gone had I not succumbed to doing X. It seems to me that we all wonder about these so called possibilities. What if my parents had decided to hold off on the sex until two weeks later and I'd have been, consequently, born two weeks later, would I have been any different?
I would like to think, yes. But, then, I'd also like to think a big fat no. If I was meant to be here, like this, a product of all of my influences, I would have been here regardless of the day, date, month, year, time I was born and would probably be thinking the things I do now, now. But, would I really? Would I have had the same influences?
I believe in the crazies of the zodiac signs. What they say might just as well be true of me as of any Pisces born on such and such a day at such and such a time with the stars that have been aligned in a particular manner. For all I know, the hoccum may as well be fact... I am sure the statistics is all wrong here, but about half the world, at least, believes in hocus pocus. If not magic, then something else. Superstition, some other crazies. But, my point is, even if you do, or don't, it is a product of influence. From the outside world, from rational thought, from experience, whatever.
So, I guess I would have been different. I would be two weeks less mature or different than I am now.
I digress, but do you ever notice how loud it gets in the cities sometimes? It's almost like under the drone of the constant construction noises you can't even hear your own thoughts... now, before you start contemplating this route of thought, let me bring you back to my little dilemma,
What if I had not done X and instead done Y?
Why ought I to even ask myself that question when X has occurred and now Y remains one of the many options that could have taken its place? So, granted that X has happened, are my feelings for X having happened justified? Supposing that X was in my control and Y was as well, but the circumstances leading to X are valid as opposed to the rationale behind Y, ought I to say that nothing else could have happened but X? Not necessarily, or necessarily, yes...
It's all so confusing. I am sure philosophy will seem meaningless after a while. And the only thing that will be left will be observation and nothing more. Observation of the contradictory thoughts that coexist in the world as well as the ignorance of those thoughts towards each other. Perhaps all that philosophical thought is IS observation and rational abstraction.
Who knows? Do you?
